pas de deux
"I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it.” - Audrey Hepburn
"Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow, but this same necessity of loving serves to
counteract their grief and heals them." - Leo Tolstoy
Thank you to the beautiful people who sent me kind messages. You’ve given me the tiny bit of strength i need to refuse giving up. You can’t realise how much that means. It’s saved me from a new scar and even worse feelings for the next few days and weeks.
I love you. Thank you.
It’s 3:30am and i still can’t sleep. I’m so miserable. I hate myself so much it’s unbearable. I’m terrified of giving up again and just allowing the depression to take over but it’s so hard fighting against it. I’ve been lying here for hours getting worse and worse. Thinking intensely about hurting myself and suicide plans again. I’m beyond exhausted from years of sadness, being anxious and hating myself.
Sorry for being all sad and gross on your dashboards!
what gets you through things? i'm going through really bad anxiety at the moment and experiencing weird symptoms and i just feel so alone
I’m sorry to hear you’re having a hard time :(
I still struggle a bit so i can’t exactly say i have fail proof tips or anything but for me i find making sure i give myself time alone and any exercise (endorphins!). But if you’re feeling alone then maybe you should talk to someone about how you’re feeling. Get it off your chest to a friend, psych or even just people on tumblr.
Deep, slow, long breaths do wonders for anxiety too. Try and get out of your mind and into the physical part of the body. Yoga is brilliant for that i find.
Ps sorry this is such a late reply. I avoid a lot of social interactions sometimes as part of my depression and anxiety occasionally so sometimes it’s hard replying to all my messages :(
Talk to me any time you need help or just a friend. Things will get better soon. I honestly believe it :) xx
Mark Haddon, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time. (via shoutings)
merci mon cherie :)
She’s adorable and it’s her birthday. Send her some love everyone! :)
I love love your blog. (:
Aw thank you so much. You’re terribly sweet! xx
